Today is my 23rd birthday.
It’s been a quiet day, which has gotten me thinking about my
life over the last few years. I look back and see just how far I have come in
the last year of my life, never mind the other 22 years before that.
I’ll admit it, there have been times I have felt alone,
confused, discouraged, and times I have wanted to give up. There have even been
some times that I truly questioned God and His plan for me. I sometimes wondered
why He has put a plan in place that doesn’t suit my particular tastes or
desires.
I may see Him clearly leading, but sometimes it’s just
easier (in theory), to put up a fight and see if I can get my own way.
But you know what? I realized something…that’s not easy, and
it doesn’t work. It just exhausts one—spiritually, mentally, emotionally, even
physically. There’s no saying I’ll never do it again, but I surely can see it’s
not the easy way out.
Today is a new day of life, however, in more than one way I
suppose.
I’m thankful to God that He has brought me through some very
difficult things to the place where I am today. I still may not find ultimate
joy all the time, and I still have a lot of growing to do, but I want to trust
that as I go into my 23rd year of life that God will continue to go
with me and make His plan clearer. I hope that I will gain strength and courage
and be a blessing to others.
I guess I could be reminded of these things any other time
of the year, but a birthday is a good opportunity, and especially to remember
God’s love for me, as well as the others around me!
