Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Trusting His Plans

If God leads you to it, He will lead you through it.

I have to keep reminding myself of that reassuring fact as I push my way through my nursing classes each quarter. It is easy to get stressed, discouraged, and want to give up at times. I experienced this recently, but God wasn't willing to let me give up that easily. I realized that I wasn't the one who worked things out to be able to be in the position I am in--it was all God's doing, up until the very last detail, and therefore I needed to trust His plan for my life. I am just a weak human, how do I know what is best for me? I never knew why He brought me to Walla Walla, but He has me here for a reason, and I think I am starting to catch little glimpses of what that might be. It's exciting! 

It's only recently that I embraced this thought, however. Just a few weeks ago, my agenda seemed to be quite the opposite. 

I tried escaping. God closed the doors before I could.
I made excuses. God brought me conviction.
I was confused. God put the right people in my path at just the right moment, to ask me questions that ultimately cleared things up in my own mind. 
I contradicted myself. God opened my eyes to the reality of my situation.
I had forgotten why I began in the first place. God reminded me. 

Without the reassurance of His guidance, it is sometimes easy for fear to grip the very heart. But why fear when He is so indubitably involved? I have decided and determined in my own heart and mind that what I am doing is ultimately for God and His greater glory. If I can become a nurse and just impact one person's life, I think it will all be worth it. 

I am excited to see what He is going to do, and how He will prepare me to work for Him as a nurse, or wherever He leads beyond that--this is not just for me, I submit that it is His career. "Whatever is to be done at His command may be accomplished in His strength. All His biddings are enablings" (COL p. 333).